In
1971 my wife's health deteriorated gradually until one day her
condition became serious. I was worried about her and went to the
ashram to tell Baba of my concern. The sun was setting, and Maharaj was
sitting alone in his kuti, facing the window. I
bowed to him from outside the window, went into the room, and sat
facing his back on the floor by his takhat. Some
moments passed in silence. Then Baba suddenly turned around and showing
two raised fingers, said, "Two more children are yet to
be born." He then became serious and sat quietly facing
the window.
In
the mental state I was in at the time, I could not understand him. My
wife was at death's door, and Baba was saying two more children were to
be born. It came to my mind that my wife would not die if two more
children were still to be born. Surely she would escape death. I felt a
little more relaxed. I offered pranaam to Baba
and went back
home. Then I began to think that my wife was aging and that if she was
going to give birth to more babies, she would not be able to withstand
the physical strain. I then thought that the birth of a child was a
matter for joy and wondered why Baba became serious and quiet. I did
not have any answer to this question and it remained a mystery.
Gradually my wife recovered.
In September 1973 Maharaj took Mahasamadhi,
and in the winter of that very year, my wife gave birth to twins. Both
children had a beautiful appearance, but they were stillborn. It was
then that I understood the meaning of Baba's silence.
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