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Resisting Baba's Influence |
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I first heard about Baba while I was
teaching in Ghorakhal. One day in 1966 I decided to go for his darshan.
As soon as I went into Maharaj ji's kuti, he
said, "Come, Srivastava, come." and told
the devotees present, "He belongs to Ayodhya. His father
works in the Water Works Department."
Considering I had never met him before, I was surprised and impressed
by his words. After that I went to Kainchi ashram to see him often, and
each time the impression he left on me deepened.
My guru had initiated me into the Nanak Shahi
mantra, and I recited it every day. Once, when I came to Kainchi to see
Baba, I deliberately sat behind other visitors. I was having his darshan
and simultaneously reciting my guru mantra. Baba called me to him again
and again and gave me fruit. After taking prasad
from him, I returned to my place each time and started to repeat my
mantra. At one point I said to him, "Baba, you are giving me all the
fruit." Thereupon Baba smiled and whispered, "Because
you were testing me. Now you go."
Baba knew what was in my mind. I did not want to leave his company, but
at the same time I wanted to restrain his influence on me because I was
afraid that it might lessen my devotion to my own guru.
-R.C. Srivastava, Khochan, Ayodhya
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